Let me tell you about a meditation that helped me find my power, face my fears and propel me forward in a huge way.
Years ago, I was going through a very difficult time with my family and was trying to figure out who I was as a human. My identity was wrapped up in being a mom, a wife and all the other roles that I was taking on during that time.
I started meditating to find some peace and instantly experienced moments of Divine connection. I knew this was something I had to continue to keep myself semi-sane. One of the meditations I experienced, was so profound that I still cling to the messages from it to this day.
The day I entered this powerful meditation was just a normal day. I had a few moments to spend by myself so I set my space, got comfortable, closed my eyes and entered the realm of my subconscious.
I surrendered to the meditative process and allowed a safe place to appear before me. I explored whatever my soul wanted to share with me. Visions came to me clearly, like a dream or a movie playing before me.
I saw myself, but as a little girl, maybe 11 years old. My hair was flowing in the wind as I entered a meadow at the top of a deep and beautiful canyon. My grandmother who passed away years ago appeared on my left and grabbed my hand. I was stunned yet excited to see her.
As my grandmother and I entered the meadow, we looked around to take in the view. The grass was waving at us in the wind. I could feel the rays of the sun peeking through the clouds and landing on my skin. The warmth from the sun mixed with a cool breeze from the luscious green forest surrounding the meadow.
A powerful yet overwhelming feeling came over me as I peered into the forest. I focused in on the darkness between the trees, little eyes began to appear all over the forest. They were looking at me. I could feel the forest calling to me. It was telling me I would one day have to face all the beast who were lurking from within.
I panicked a bit, then looked at my grandmother for support and was stunned at what I saw. She was a pillar of stone! I stepped back to look at her from a better angle. I wanted to be sure what I was seeing was correct. As I examined her she crumbled into tiny pieces.
We both knew I was going to have to enter the forest and face the beasts known as my fears, past pain, old emotions, and negative beliefs. It was so terrifying that my grandmother crumbled. If she was that afraid of MY beasts, how was I going to face them on my own.
I looked around in worry and then begged for help in a prayer like manner. Suddenly, an owl flew out of the forest heading directly toward me. The fear within paralyzed me. Before I knew it, the owl was directly in front of me and landed on my left shoulder.
I didn't know whether to trust the owl or fear him. I turned and looked at him with the question in my eye. He looked at me and said, “it's okay, I can see in the dark and I'' guide you through the forest.” With relief in my soul I relaxed.
The power of what just happened started to sink in. I immediately felt larger-than-life and more powerful than ever. With the owls help I’d be okay and could face the forest knowing that I was supported and guided.
After that meditation, any time I saw an owl my heart would flutter in joy. The owl became a sign of guidance and support. I knew when I saw an owl I was in the right place at the right time.
This meditation opened a door to a place I could visit any time. I needed that safe place during my time of pain and chaos. It started out as a place of healing and became a place where I gathered guidance and wisdom.
I now call the forest from my meditations “The Forest of Freedom.” Eventually, I was able to face my beasts. Honestly, they weren’t as scary as I thought they’d be. Turns out many of my beasts were baby animals that just wanted to be seen, heard, and acknowledged.
In order to do that, I had to face some tough emotions and accept parts of myself I was ignoring. One of the biggest things I had to face was fear of my own power, which was represented by a little lion cub.
Meditation set me free and allowed me to heal in a way that felt safe. I found my Divinity and knowledge I could trust from within my soul. I will forever be grateful for these moments of peace I set aside for myself during a difficult time.
Do you meditate? If so, have you found healing through meditation?
